Another promise :)

From now on I'm going to stop trying to be normal! You are probably thinking: "what is that supposed to mean?"

To begin with, let me define normal based on the context above. Normal means, doing things the same way as how the general population would do it, like reacting to certain situations, study habits, etc.

Now that I defined normal, you are probably wondering why I would want to stop trying to be normal. Isn't being normal supposed to be part of everyone's daily life (like an involuntary action)? Well, that is the point. I am far from normal. Okay maybe not that far, but the distance is (as accountants would phrase it) "material enough to be disclosed".

For the last few years, I've been trying to be close to the norm. But recently, I realized that not all normal things fit in my life. Like marks, yes I do care about them as much as normal people do. But crying over spilled milk, and stressing about it (because everyone is) rather than finding a solution is not really my thing, nor does taking those bird courses that I would probably fail because I am not interested in them. I don't cram either, rather I am used to (my brain is) studying during the lecture part and taking it easy before the days of the test. Pressure and marks are not the way to motivate me, but love for what I do and the desire to be good at it drives me to do my best.

In other words, the buttons that I push to motivate myself is very different from other people, and that's what makes me different from them. And although there are people who cannot appreciate this uniqueness, I should not change myself and the way I do things just to please them. After all, it is better to have difficulty trying to let others understand this uniqueness in the short-run, than suffering (and getting depressed) in the long-run because I don't understand myself.

*thanks a lot QC!!!